I know you shouldn’t live your life in the past and believe me I’m not one to do it. I’m more of a ” oh well, C’est La vie,” life goes on sort of thing, But recently it’s really hit home how much things have changed or how much i felt about things and sat and wondered to myself “what if”?
This is another thing I never do because once you start walking down that twisted road you’ll get lost and never find yourself again.. I’ve just started to walk it recently trying not to slip away, But I’ve felt myself Slip a few times.
I tend to think about past relationships and how things were when I was in certain relationships, it just really Hits home every time it happens. Don’t get me wrong I know I’m only young but it’s such a killer. Me being a Musician and a song writer makes me feel better about the whole situation but I’m not one to write happy songs, so if anything it makes me twice as worse. every song I write has her in mind, Every time I can’t sleep at night it’s because of her, It’s ruined summer for me because I was the happiest i ever was with her. I used to love summer and everything, don’t get me wrong I still do, but as soon as that sun shines she’s there by the side of me or I’m looking in to her eyes. Nothing feels the same. The fact that I see her face on a regular basis and we’re still really close is something I can’t explain. oh well ” Such is Life”
Lately I’ve realized that the happiest I ever was, was when i was with you back then, every song i write is about you, You’re always there. and seeing you basically every day Kills me.